Monday, October 15, 2012

Fefi Le Purr’s pathology. :(

Hi Friends,

I wish I came to you with better news today but I do not. My overly dramatic motherly instincts were sadly right on.

Fefi Le’ Purr’s pathology came back.

She has cancer.

Feline Hemangiosarcoma.

A very,very, very rare cancer in felines.
(Though very common and deadly cancer in dogs.)

Either way, rare or common, it is a grave diagnosis.

Our vet said the tumor was large and deep. Unfortunately he was unable to get clean margins on the tumor. Left and right were clear but the depth was not clear. The cancer is still in her and is guaranteed to come back.

I asked him about further treatments and he said that chemotherapy after surgery is a common treatment in dogs, but the rareness of this cancer in cats leaves little to be expected from it. There are very few studies on it’s effectiveness. It is a deadly cancer.

We need to watch her for further tumors and surgery will always be an option for the ones we do find but it will continue to spread and it can not be stopped. Eventually it will take over her organs and those tumors will not be able to be removed. 

Though I value his opinion, he has never personally seen this cancer before in cats so I have spent the last few days researching, making calls, asking opinions and deciding what we should do and I am sad to say there is not much that can be done. Yes, chemo is an option, but not one that will give her a lot of time. Even if we do it, we may get maybe two years. She is healthy now, and chemo will make her sick and though I would give anything to save her… I won’t be selfish just to extend the inevitable.

I am destroyed.

Doc said without the cancer she could easily live to 20. And with the way we care for our cats… the cat enclosure removing all outside death risks, raw food giving them optimum health from the inside out, not vaccinating therefor removing the ever increasing risk of deadly vaccination site sarcoma… we can easily add another 5 years to all our cats lifespan.

But the cancer is going to steal that from Miss Le’ Purr.

There is no way to know how long she has. I wish there were. She is 11.5 years young. And I can promise you she has had the best life any cat can ever have. She has lacked nothing in her time here with us and she will continue to lack nothing. I will give her anything and everything she needs.

I am going to look into holisitic supportive options as well to help increase her body's ability to fight this cancer. If anyone has any advice on this I would love to hear. 

Let me also be clear that I will not let her suffer and that is all the further that conversation needs to be taken. Please don’t go there. We are prepared to let her go with dignity and anyone who knows me knows that without question. Discussing that, pointing it out, only brings negative energy into a space where we are trying to hold onto the positive. However holding onto the positive doesn't mean we don't know how this will eventually end or that we aren't prepared to help her cross over if that is what must happen. 

Though her time with us is limited our love and respect for her is not.

We may get lucky. Who knows. I am praying for that.  And I ask that you do the same. Pray for her. Send her good thoughts and positive vibes. Maybe we will get a miracle!

Until next time…

Carmen and the Primcats


Dirty Martini Queen said...

Oh Carmen I read Fefi's news with tears running down my face. We also lost our Scrappy due to cancer and even though that was over 12 years ago not a day goes by that I don't think about him. He fought up to the very end and his spirit kept us going during and after. All you can do is pamper her a little more than normal :) and love her. She'll let you know when it's time and I say a little prayer for y'all that's it's a long time coming. Sending lots of purrs from Clarice and me.

Primitive Stars said...

Hello Carmen, so so sorry to hear that heart is heavy....prayers will be sent for your sweet kitty....sending positive energy your way....Blessings Francine.

ohiofarmgirl said...

Carmen, I am ever so sorry. I have only words of hope. Maybe something in the holistic meds will extend her health and maybe it will grow much slower than expected...just give her your love and attention. I know you have done all you can and have no regrets about that. Blessings to you all, Dianntha

Tiff said...

((((hugs)))) to you and Fefi. I don't know of anyone who has more love for her kitties than you, all that you do to give them the most superb lives possible, not too many people have that much devotion. I'm positive Fefi knows she is in the best place and knows how much she is loved. How ever long she has here on Earth, I know you will make it sweet and comfortable for her. Sending you lots of positive energy and strength.


bettyj said...

So sorry,Carmen. There is no doubt you will do what is best for her. Don't see how anyone would/could question that. Feel so bad for you all. Prayed.

Sandi @ The Primitive Skate said...

Sorry to hear this Carmen. My thoughts and Prayers are with you and Fefi at this difficult time.

Wendy @ Ravenwood Whimzies said...

I'm so sorry Carmen....sometimes there is nothing we can do to make things better. You have and continue to give your sweet kitty the best life possible...that is all you can do. Hugs

Brenda said...

Good Morning Carmen... I am so sorry to hear the results of the pathology, but I too believe in the power of positivity. Your cats have the best life and health possible, and since this condition is rare in cats, Fefi will more than likely teach the vets a thing or two on how to slow down this cancer DRASTICALLY. Her future is not written in stone. With her great health, holistic medicine is the ticket! She is loved and a loving cat, and that can work wonders on the human and feline body. Fefi is blessed to have such caring owners. My prayers and thoughts are with you all...

Jessica @Blessings in the Country said...

Sad to hear this news! Wish I could hug ya! I definitely believe in natural/holistic healing and we are trying to practice it more in our home. There are so many people who have cured their cancer naturally, but I haven't seen anything about pets with cancer. I will keep my eyes open and if I find anything I will for sure share with you. Fefi has the best kitty life ever, that is the most important and comforting thing to know. I will continue praying!

frontporchprims said...

I am sorry Carmen. Even animals can't escape the dreaded cancer. It is an awful thing. I know your baby is in the best care. -Steph-

BumbleBeeLane said...

Carmen sorry to hear but good you are keeping positive.Yes enjoy the love and time you have.You'll know when she is uncomfortable.I agree with you try some alternative natural remedies.We have so many issues with our one dog and after I basically watched him suffer on for years through vet treatment I took things into my own hands and I'll tell you there is hope he is improving with holistic medicine.We are fortunate to have the internet to research.I recommend the product you choose to read reviews and make a educated decission from there.Big Hug for you and Fefi Le Purr!~Amy

~Sara said...

Sending hugs. So sorry~ We have had three kitties over the last 16 years. We have lost 2 of them and only have one left. It is so hard when they are at the end of life and you can't help. Enjoy her each day. Blessings~Sara

cynthia lee designs said... sorry to hear this news. Saying prayers for Fefi and you. I know that you are the best cat mommy in the world and I know that Fefi know that too.

Trace4J said...

Praying for Fefi and you friend.
Give her extra scratches for me.
You truly are a wonderful Mama and your heart will tell you what choices to make.
Hugs & Love

Raggedy Creations said...

Carmen I'm sorry Fifi has cancer. I know you are doing the best for her I can hear it in the tone of your post. Will say a prayer for her and you too.


Allison said...

I'm sorry to hear about Fefi. Sending hugs!